My darling son Pedro died this morning, September 20, 2010.
He was 14 years old.
Sometime, I will be able to write him a more fitting memorial to try and convey who he was - the love of my life.
For now, an earlier post will have to do.
Tchau my littl-y son.
You are so precious to me.
A Visit With Pedro
So many things I want to teach him, I'm just brimming with ideas! A country a day. Devotionals for teens. Multiplication tables. How to bake a cake from scratch (and not out of a box as we did this weekend). English sayings like "hold your horses" and "don't let the cat out of the bag" (wait, do I know where that one came from??). Cribbage. How to talk to God about anything, at any time. How to forgive. How to apologize - and really mean it. How to spell in English. How to make chili. How to eat with chopsticks.
The list could go on and on - oh, it did. But you get my point. It's tricky to pack all that learning and living into a weekend and not make it feel like cramming for the SATs. My desire to bless him and teach him and raise him - all condensed into the occasional weekend, leaves me feeling agitated sometimes, like I haven't done enough. But I don't want him to feel like he's a student - he's my son. I so wish all that teaching and learning could just flow naturally out of every day life.
But, I am oh-so-grateful for every moment I do have with him. So we just enjoy our time together although we both feel it isn't really enough.
Here's the highlights of this visit: (with his little friend Fauso in blue)
-Making blueberry muffins (NOT from a box, from a packet!)
-Practicing with chopsticks at the Chinese restaurant
-Multiplication practice during Yahtzee
-What does Easter mean to me personally discussion
-A short note added to my mom with some English spelling practice.
I love this little boy, well, young man, so much my heart sometimes wants to burst! It almost did when I left him at home, pictured below with the little neighborhood children, on Sunday evening. My world isn't quite the same when he isn't tangibly in it.